Under Your Smile, Look Back Not

Sometimes we repeatedly do the same thing, because we have experienced God that way, and we did it again and hope God react the way we expected. BUT God is more creative than we are. We limit ourselves with our past experiences, we live by our own strength, we tried to take the lead. ALL FAILED. Because he's a god who do new things.

Same place, same people, maybe same heart, maybe not.
Matter not, yet, time has passed, life changed, life went on.
Look around, look up, look forward, but DON'T LOOK BACK.
The best is yet to come.



"Could I sit for a while under Your smile and not say a word
‘Cause the cry of my heart is to be set apart and I know You’ve heard
I don’t want to be anywhere else but by Your side
I don’t want to be anything less than pure in Your eyes..."
-Merchant Band

2011-> 2012

2011 hasn't been a good year for me. A lot has happened to my closest friends. People around me all went through tough times, yet I wasn't able to help them a bit, coz myself was also barely surviving.

Someone asked me about my achievement in 2012. I'd definitely say becoming a TL in 2011 is my achievement. I'm not talking about career sense, but to choose to walk this path with Jesus was the achievement that I've made. I still remember crying to God, thinking I don't have what it takes, and too fearful or going out of my comfort zone. But the decision to follow Jesus, and give him my hands, I've experienced his guidance once again. Yet 'WORK' itself somehow became my another burden. My calling, turned into my burden, which was also the thing that dragged me down.

2011, I was also about to give up something that I've been praying for years. Yet someone spoke to me with affirmation. At this point of time, I really don't know what I should do. Unwillingly I'm bringing this frustration into 2012, but I pressed on praying for the revelation of your heart, Lord.

2012, still a lot more to come. Speak to me, before I say any more.